slacker me

Sorry, to all of you who check my blog and find nothing there. I so want to get on my blog and announce that I am doing great and that my medications have cured me. I can't say that and I don't want people to worry about me. I took Diphenidol for a month and didn't notice any decrease in symptoms so the doctor just put me on a new drug on thursday. Let's cross our fingers. I seem to be coping a little bit better which is good news! I really have so much to be grateful for, Kerry has been my personal angel. I honestly don't know what I would do without him, he is so attentive and concerned. I am very lucky and blessed. I am trying to be more brave about going outside of the home, social situations can be extremely difficult because I get panic attacks if too many people are around me. People move so fast and talk so loud! I am finding a little relief using a cane when I go out, but I feel dumb. Am I 33 or 80? Anyway, I took both of my girls to the store the other day for the first time in three months and I did ok. That was huge for me! I've taken one at a time but not both. I so want to be able to go out and enjoy this time of year, I absolutely love Halloween and the holidays. I want to be normal and go do normal things.